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IF YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY SILENCE, YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND MY WORDS.

LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.- Jesus



"Every moment and every event of every man's life on earth plants something in his soul." ~Thomas Merton



Sticks and stones MAY hurt my bones, but unkind words will always hurt me! - me




















Tuesday, May 5, 2020

Acedia in the Time of Corona

“Time”  in the Time of Corona
Acedia.  
How do you pronounce that? What does it mean?  I like the Latin pronunciation.
Thomas Aquinas referred to Acedia as, 
a state of listlessness or torpor, of not caring or not being concerned with one's position or condition in the world. In ancient Greece akidía literally meant an inert state without pain or care.[1] Early Christian monks used the term to define a spiritual state of listlessness and from there the term developed a markedly Christian moral tone. 

We were made for joy, and joy is a response to something good.

True joy, like walking through my backyard seeing clusters of love in the form of flowers or grass, or herbs and vegetables grown and cultivated by Brayde, or vines with baby grapes growing in clusters, a gift from a childhood friend.
True joy….

The true joy as our  21-month-old grandson Javier tries to replicate his PaPaw’s very unique laugh.

The True Joy in our 7-month old Lucia’s voice as she sings the same soul humming tune that has been used to lull so many of our children throughout generations to sleep.

The True Joy of a meal eaten together at a slow and easy pace with no pressing appointment to be made and no running late to experience!

The True joy of youngest siblings banding together whenever they feel the need to make an important point.

The true joy of siblings practicing love and forgiveness first amongst themselves, even when it is difficult, and knowing that it must happen with those closest to them so that it can be extended to the society at large, and ultimately to the world. 
The true joy in the real-life form that stirs something in your soul.

Or we can choose “Fake Joy”, hours of sedate in the form of entertainment and the entanglement of threads of which the spool never runs out.

Pleasure without actually possessing the “true good.”

Or we can choose to lose ourselves in the inebriation of alcohol or other forms of escape trying to  “Be Somebody”, the kind of somebody who is unrecognizable to those who love us.  The kind of person, if we could only see ourselves, would also be unrecognizable to ourselves.

Fake Joy in the form of hours of idleness, seemingly working our way from one season to another or cheering on the futile battles of invented games of war and dominance on a pretend battlefield in a futile competition, and all the while missing out on precious hours of contemplation and conversation with those who we say we love. 

Acedia is a “deep-seated lack of calm which makes leisure impossible.” It is a restlessness that does not mean only inactivity as commonly understood, but rather, as Kierkegaard noted, a “despairing refusal to be oneself.” This refusal can take the form of a couch potato or a workaholic. Theologically, the person refuses “to be what God wants him to be, and that means that he does not want to be what he really, and in the ultimate sense, is.” This definition confronts the all too often modern idea that we can be whatever we want to be. What we want to be is too often a false self that fails to discover what we are created to be. In psychological language, we create masks, false selves, that disable us from allowing the real person to come through. (Naughton) 

Sloth is known as acedia.  It’s an aversion to becoming more God-like.

T.S. Eliot wrote (in part) in The Four Quartets of Burnt Norton

...Distracted from distraction by distraction
Filled with fancies and empty of meaning
Tumid apathy with no concentration
Men and bits of paper, whirled by the cold wind
That blows before and after time,
Wind in and out of unwholesome lungs
Time before and time after. -T.S. Eliot

Ultimately acedia leads us to deny our own potential for greatness. This is the vice of faint-heartedness( lack of courage) or pusillanimity, which   Aquinas opposes to the virtue of magnanimity, the greatness of soul.

I AM of course guilty of falling into a state of listlessness, but in The Time Of Corona I am afforded the gift of time and self-examination and I am humbly in pursuit of magnanimity.

It is my deepest desire to keep and use this gift of time, and to be able to say that in the Time of Corona I chose love in the form of movement, unlike idle busyness, that I chose to be more God-like and that in The Time of Corona, I did not choose “Fake Joy.”
Let this Life in the Time of Corona be our metanoia! Our change of heart and mind.





Sunday, April 19, 2020

Love In The Time of Corona

This day finds me 57 years old and a Grandmother known as DD.  What goes around comes around and I am back to the name I was called when I wore a younger human's clothes.

Javier Gael and Lucia Rose are the names of our precious grandchildren and we are all so in love with them.

They bring us great joy.  Circumstances (Quarantining)are not allowing us to see them in person currently but they live nearby now, and we look so forward to being able to hold them again!

We are also looking ahead to the birth of our firstborns, firstborn(Lantana) and that too is a joyous occasion we can't wait to happen!

There has been so much that has transpired in the life of our family, but trying to catch up would only leave me lost.

So I will start in the here and now and toggle between past and present.






Sunday, May 8, 2016

Humanhood in Motherhood








I have learned “humanhood” through “motherhood.”


I am grateful to my children for the many opportunities they have given me in learning to be the best human I can be.  I have been a mother now for 11,052 days!


There has been(is) no other job that has been more important to me.  I have come short in many respects, but my love for each and everyone of them is what fills my heart and soul with love and peace.


I am learning every day and every year important lessons in prudence, justice, fortitude and temperance.
It is MY privilege to be called your mother Monica, Rebekah, Kindred, Bryden, Given, Noble & Justice!
To be called mamma, Lil’ Mamma, ma, mommy & even an occasional DeeDee.
My heart walks outside my body seven-fold.

“Making the decision to have a child - it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ” -Elizabeth Stone


Thursday, January 7, 2016

Three Kings Day ( Dia de Los Reyes 2016)

During the Christmas season & ordinary days, gifts come in various forms.  In trials and turmoil are patience, perseverance, peace, faith and deep love shown for one another. Priceless. Epiphany. 

Friday, November 20, 2015

Write my way back!

It's been so long since I've posted anything here.  I tried another outlet and maybe I (wordpress) I will go back, but I found myself only trying to figure it out, ( my own ineptness) but I let's give this a try again!
This will go down in my history book as  a best summer ever!  

Friday, October 17, 2014

Volleyball 2014

Almost game time ... Go Cats! #calallenwildcats

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Fall 2014

I love the Fall and it can love me back when I need an afghan to wrap up in as  I have my morning coffee outside. #signsoffall #mysoulsmile #fall2014

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Family photos

A few family pics with SOME of my favorite people, who happen to be familia. Family wedding in Austin, Texas.   I love all these special times together.  Thank you James and Courtney for including us.







Thursday, August 14, 2014

New School Swag

The babies,  also know as  'The New Two' are moving up! It's hard to believe, but they both picked up their schedules and it's all becoming so real! Ten years in Corpus Christi Calallen and Noble is going to High School and Justice to Middle School! They are so loved and we look forward to all the joyous numbered days ahead.   #nobleandjusticescholarathletes



Saturday, July 26, 2014

Colorado bound

I'm hoping the trip to Colorado stays this peaceful! 

Friday, July 25, 2014

Moon & Sunsets

"When I admire the wonders of a sunset or the beauty of the moon, my soul expands in the worship of the Creator."

~Mahatma Gandhi 







Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Real People Immigration





The topic of immigration always makes me call to mind a story of real people in a Real immigration story.
It makes me ponder the current attitude of immigration laws and more importantly the attitudes of people on either side.


My father was a Mexican national who came to America when he was four years old with his Father and mother Isaac and Florentina Sanchez.  His father (my grandfather) was a sharecropper who started his own retail business in the small community of Fentress, Texas.  He worked hard all his life and lived his dream which happened to be on the spot of Earth that we currently call America, a place on earth that was at one time also called Mexico.


My father Delfino Sanchez served in two wars ( WW II,Korean) before he became an official citizen of the United States of America in 1968. He never accepted government aid except for the benefit of a lower mortgage rate for veterans who wanted to become homeowners.  He paid his mortgage completely before he died.  He was born in Matehuala, Mexico in the State of San Luis Potosi in 1917 and lived most of his life in Luling, Texas where he died when he was 78 years old. He was an immigrant, an American, and his life evokes the attitude in me to live as a Citizen of the World.  



I had the privilege this weekend of spending some time on a 10,000 acre Ranch on the border of Laredo and Mexico. I have been there once before but this trip made a particular impression on my heart and mind as we gathered in the kitchen and listened to background noise of reports on the buses of immigrants in California being greeted with the rants of angry Americans protesting their entrance.


We were engaged in activities like cooking, planning meals,retelling stories and preparing our young boys to play baseball on the Fourth of July in Laredo, America.   Us, a group of people born in America with our Irish,Scotch, German, Spanish and Mexican heritage all  melted together.


The stories of the Ranch Managers who have practiced what I call “True Hospitality” and “True Religion” told of how they periodically feed and clothe the lost immigrants who they encounter on the Ranch that they oversee.


They tell stories of how they have doctored them back to health, their ripped feet, parched lips and given them food to eat and clothes to keep them warm and then expecting nothing in return have sent them on or called the appropriate authorities.


They told stories of how these sojourners, trying to find work in order to feed their families back home, endure the most harsh circumstances and injustices from both sides of the border and both sides of the law.


The Ranch Managers understand that according to American law, they are not allowed to hire them to work, but the immigrants tell stories of how they are trying to make it to the big cities of America where they can work for the rich as hired undocumented help.  


They make comparisons of the  quality work that the sojourning immigrants of Honduras, Mexico and Guatemala desire to pay them back with, and how the American workers in the area will not accept the jobs they view as beneath them.

These are real perspectives of Real people and their heart responses on both sides are legitmate.
The following was written 9 yrs. ago by the Bishop of Laredo James Tamayo, Statement at the Justice for Immigrants Launching Press Conference, May 10, 2005.


“While many may condemn the presence of the undocumented in our land, we willingly accept their hard labor,.....  While we accept these contributions, we do so at the expense of the human beings who come here not to harm us but to help us.  They are often ridiculed, exploited, and abused. “ Nicholas DiMarzio, Bishop of Brookly, Statement at the Immigrant Workers Freedom Ride, Oct. 2003

I will always try to keep my response in accord with the words of the Peacemakers.
I am an American, a daughter of an immigrant and a citizen of the world; a universal society.
I am most proud to be a citizen of the world. 


Saturday, July 5, 2014

July 5, 2014

Happy Birthday Justice! Born on the fifth of July!